How was your Christmas and New Year? I hope that you were able to find joy in this season amidst the pandemic that is still happening around the world.

But, how are you lately? They said that the holidays usually prompt people to reflect on their lives. I supposed that the increased amount of time that we spend at home has given us plenty of time to think things through, more than we want to. 

From my previous post, Life in Time of Quarantine, I have mentioned that I have read appropriate devotions to calm my anxious soul. They were all from YouVersion, a Bible and devotionals app which you may download for free from the Play Store and the App Store. I’ve been using YouVersion for years already and it has made Bible reading more accessible for me especially when I am breastfeeding my little one, putting them to bed at night, and on rare occasions when I am awake very early in the morning.

Seven months in. Can you believe it?

This is the longest that my children and I have to stay at home. My husband is the only one who goes out every two weeks for our necessities.

The start of the lockdown was very difficult for me, mentally. For the first few weeks since the lockdown was enforced in the metro, I was very anxious, borderline panicky, had difficulty sleeping, and would get so upset when my husband and our kids wouldn’t wash their hands as frequent and as thorough as I deemed necessary. I kinda felt like we were at the first half of Sandra Bullock’s film, The Birdbox, and wanted to seal our whole house. Also, whenever my husband would tell me that he would do the groceries, I get so worried thinking that it’s as dangerous as being on a supply run in that Netflix thriller movie.